Contents
Introduction Esoteric Hidden Treasure 1
Chapter 1 A Choice of Fate 9
Chapter 2 On the Pilgrim s Road 50
Chapter 3 Niguma off in the Distance 69
Chapter 4 Avalanches and Wolf Packs 83
Chapter 5 The Female Spirits of Nepal 102
Chapter 6 The Worries of a Female Spirit 116
Chapter 7 Khyungpo Naljor s Dream Demons 134
Chapter 8 The Pilgrimage 162
Chapter 9 Long-gone Fallen Flowers 199
Chapter 10 Going Back 219
Chapter 11 On the Road to Enlightenment 241
Chapter 12 Reasons for Love 266
Chapter 13 The Light of Sarnath 276
Chapter 14 Experience for the Soul 317
Chapter 15 Tasting Rajgir 354
Chapter 16 Sukhasiddhi s Test 392
Chapter 17 The Light of the Great Mudra 424
Chapter 18 Teaching the Sweet Dew of the Dakinis 458
Chapter 19 The Soul of the Search 511
Chapter 20 The Bloody Light of Kapilavastu 584
Chapter 21 The Light of the Bliss of Emptiness 625
Chapter 22 A Distant Holy Song 651
Chapter 23 A Barrel Full of Demons 672
Chapter 24 Dearly Beloved Khyung 696
Chapter 25 The Origin of the Dispute 706
Chapter 26 The Prostitutes of Vaishali 725
Chapter 27 Sharwadi s Longing 764
Chapter 28 Niguma s Mandala 770
Chapter 29 Sharwadi s Pain 787
Chapter 30 Niguma s Sweet Dew 804
Chapter 31 The End Is Also the Beginning 823
Postscript One Must Establish Ones Own Rules 841
Appendix My Father Xuemo and I 871